Thursday, May 17, 2012

Blah blah blah...when everything I write irritates me

Today's been one of those days when everything I write irritates me.  I've been hitting the delete button more than necessary and basically getting nowhere.  So what do I do when I'm in that funk?  Well, apparently, I blog.  Lucky you.
I'm not the kind of writer who waits for inspiration or "the Muse."  Instead I write every day, even when my own worst critic (me) is overly vocal and screaming in my ear that I need to find a job that requires no brain activity what-so-ever.  I sit at the computer and write anything that comes to mind--sort of like what I'm doing right this minute.  Again...lucky you.

Writers' block, you ask?  No.  I don't believe in writers' block.  I do believe in good days and bad days, though.  Today's been one of those days when everything I write seems forced...which is unusual.  It's not a block--it's a speed bump.

Getting over those speed bumps is tiring, frustrating and often involves cursing.  A lot of cursing.  Here are some of the things I do to get beyond the funk and back into the flow:

* I write whatever comes to mind, even if it's going to be deleted later.  I've found that the activity of writing--even when it's shit--gets my mind back into the game.

* I read my previous chapters.  When I get stuck in a work in progress (WIP), it always helps me to go back and read what I've already written.  Sometimes this leads to revising, but that's good, too.  It needs to get done eventually anyway.

*I go for a walk or do something completely unrelated to writing.  Sometimes I'm just mentally wiped out and need to step away from the computer.  I'll clean the kitchen, play fetch with the dogs, call my cousin Sheila to bug her, exercise or sit on the deck watching clouds float by (yeah, I really do that...a lot).

* I journal.  There's something about that physical connection to pen on paper that breaks creativity wide open for me.

The point is I write every day in some way or another.  Yes, I get frustrated when I feel I'm writing words that aren't exactly saying what I want...or that I'm off on a meaningless tangent that's bound to be deleted.  If I don't write something...anything...then I'm turning the speed bump into a wall.

Walls are much harder to scale than a speed bump.  Think about it.  

Whether you're a writer or not, I'm sure there are days when you feel that you've completely wasted your time...days when nothing seems to click and you question the point of it all.  Well, cut yourself some slack by reminding yourself that time is never really wasted.  My cloud watching time actually quiets my mind, which is definitely useful.  If everything is going "wrong" today, than that's showing you how to make it right tomorrow.  It's all serving a purpose that you may not see in the present moment--trust the process.


Erin O'Riordan said...

All so very true.

ferrgiuu said...

tomorrow is another day, beautiful, bright and overwhelming, different from today, this is because, what you wrote me excited, you're a person unique, special, you're all the best in the world